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I do not want anyone to know what happened between Xu Yan and me, but Tang Yu is persistent, so I can only explain to her half-truthfully: "I used to attend Anxin Middle School, and Xu Yan came to our school to look for my classmates, which is how we got to know each other."
When he first transferred to our school, he jokingly said, how could he not come here with both An Xiaoduo and me present
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Tang Yu, is that you? Are you in the same class as Jian Le Ning?
Indeed! You know Jian Lening! Oh, he transferred schools when he was in the second year of junior high, right? He transferred to your school, didn't he? Tang Yu asked me.
Is your classmate male or female
Having gone through so much, I surprisingly believed this time. Lin Jiarui truly wants to stand by me, just like a real friend would.
Just as I was feeling astonished, I saw Tang Yu waving his hand with a face full of surprise, calling out Lin Jiarui's name in the distance
Did that family ever give him warmth? If they did, why did he still choose to fall from grace? Why does he still care so much about his younger sister, Tongxingyu?
"Jian Lening, how did you get to know Xu Yan? Which middle school did you attend? I never heard of you when I was in middle school?" During a break in military training, Tang Yu kept asking me about Xu Yan.
The gaze of the bystanders was drawn to her words, and I felt quite embarrassed, looking at Lin Jiarui with a mix of amusement and helplessness
I suddenly feel a warmth in my heart
After so many years of guarding, An Xiaoduo still left with someone else
The heart, which had been lonely and empty for a long time, was suddenly filled to the brim, and I truly feel very warm
But I have always known that he came for Chong An Xiaoduo, yet this time he said he came for me
And what about me? How much better am I compared to Lin Jiarui?
My ears felt warm, and I could feel the breath of Lin Jiarui brushing against them, causing my face to flush instantly. Just as I turned away, I saw Tang Yu looking at the two of us with a very ambiguous smile
I shook the hand holding the hat, took a deep breath, and made an effort to regain my normal tone, replying: "My classmate's relationship with Xu Yan is not very good; there have been some unpleasant incidents in the past, but those are all behind us, and there is nothing more to say."
A girl may not be proud, noble, or outstanding, but she should live her life in a clean manner; however, I am no longer clean
Lin Jiarui scratched his head, pulled me over, awkwardly glanced at Tang Yu, and then lowered his head to whisper in my ear: "I am here in the sports class. When I came out from that place, the high school entrance examination had already ended, and I did poorly in the make-up exam. However, I am good at sports, so my family spent some money for me to come here. Actually, I came here for you, worried that you would be lonely by yourself. I didn't tell you last time because I was afraid you would ignore me, so I didn't say anything, and later I forgot to mention it."
My ears feel a bit numb, and Lin Jiarui's words are still echoing in my mind
Just as he said - "I am here!"
I have never had a good impression of Xu Yan; for a period of time, I even hated him, resenting him for ruining everything for me, just as I hate all those who abandoned me that night. Because of them, I can no longer live as a normal girl, pure and innocent.
I understand, it must be Xu Yan causing trouble for your classmates at school, right? He has been getting into fights everywhere in recent years. He wasn't like this when he was younger; he was quiet and had a rather cute doll-like face. I guess it might be because of the birth of his younger brother
He said he came to this school specifically for me
Lin Jiarui has always liked An Xiaoduo, and this has not changed over the years from elementary school to now. Although he has never mentioned it, I know that during the time he was detained for hurting Xu Yan because of me, An Xiaoduo left with Qi Xuan, and he must have felt quite upset about it
Xu Yan was originally an extreme person; when he felt hatred, he could only choose to hurt others to comfort himself. In fact, he is quite pitiable, being in such a family, as an adopted son, and with his adoptive parents having a biological child, it is easy to imagine how he would be treated. Although on the surface he appears to be a child from a wealthy family, he must not be happy deep down.
Lin Jiarui once told me about Xu Yan's background. Xu Yan's current parents have had another son, and naturally, his treatment has changed accordingly.
Then, in my dilated pupils, the figure of Lin Jiarui appeared, and he too walked towards us with a face full of surprise
This time it is real, truly existing in this unfamiliar campus, I only need to look up to see his familiar smile
But how could he be so fast? We just disbanded, didn't the sports class have to undergo military training?
The military training continued until sunset. By the time we were dismissed to go eat, students from the second and third years of high school had already begun to emerge from the cafeteria. Suddenly, a familiar figure flashed past me, and just when I thought I was imagining things, Tang Yu beside me suddenly exclaimed as if he had discovered a new continent.
Ah! That is my classmate from the first year of junior high school
She probably felt it was inappropriate to discuss someone else's family matters, so she did not continue speaking. I did not press further, as I understood what she was referring to
Whenever I think of his insults towards me, my heart always aches painfully, which is why I cannot forgive him, even though he is as pitiful as I am
If I were to say that I do not hate Xu Yan at all now, that would be a lie. The hatred still exists, but it is not as deep as it was before
No one is at fault, including Xu Yan
Tang Yu let out a meaningful "oh," his narrow Danfeng eyes glancing at me slightly. After a moment of silence, he seemed puzzled and continued to question me: "Did something unpleasant happen between you? Otherwise, why did you show that expression when you saw Xu Yan last time? Are you afraid of Xu Yan?"
Just as I can wrestle with him without feeling awkward, leaning together to talk, with his lips close to my ear, makes me feel completely uncomfortable
Until a few days ago, the appearance of Lin Jiarui made me realize that what I called hatred was merely a feeling experienced while I was alone, nursing my wounds
Tang Yu and Xu Yan have been classmates since elementary and middle school, and it seems that their families also have some connections.
I find it strange how Lin Jiarui ended up at our school; he doesn't seem like a passerby, but rather as if he has just come out from the cafeteria after having a meal
Although my understanding of love is not profound, I have always been able to clearly distinguish between love and friendship
I did not lie; the fact is indeed as such: Xu Yan has come to find Lin Jiarui
"Well, I am in the same class as Lin Jiarui," I answered her honestly, then turned my gaze to the boy beside me and asked in confusion, "What are you doing here?"
When he hurt me, he firmly believed that I was responsible for the death of the child star Yu. He did not know that his poor sister was actually already in the late stages of cancer, just like his biological father, and was destined to die
Since childhood, I have known that the relationship between Lin Jiarui and me has never been one of love
We all know that the person hidden in each other's hearts is not the other party
The whistle for assembly sounded, and Tang Yu and I could no longer continue our idle chatter; both sides seemed to sense the awkwardness of the atmosphere
Tang Yu appeared to understand very well, sighed, and said helplessly, with a hint of sorrow mixed in his delicate brows
Wow! You two seem a bit off! Jian Lening, all those things last time weren't given to you by Lin Jiarui, were they? Look at your face, it's all red; I must be right! Come on, tell me, are you two in that kind of relationship?
Lin Jiarui was closely pressed against me, and I could still smell the fragrance of the shower gel on him. Looking at his attire, I realized that he must have already finished his shower.
I raised my head to look at Lin Jiarui, who was smiling at me with a sincere expression.